![]() I know he wants me to be a wife and a mother and live a normal life some day, and I feel guilty about not being able to fulfill his wish. ![]() ![]() But I’m most concerned about my family, specifically my father, because I’ve never taken any boyfriends home. Actually, I have two friends who are my same age and are in the same boat, and I have many more who have been single for a long time, so I know it’s not that unusual. But it’s hard to keep those ideas at bay. I also don’t want to be perceived as weird by my friends and family, which I know is absurd because my relationship status shouldn’t define my worth. I have considered lying or exaggerating the truth, but I guess if I make up an ex-boyfriend the truth will come out eventually and it will be a disaster. Will guys want to date someone like me? Won’t they find it weird? At this point it's turning into a vicious cycle in which I'm really scared of what guys will think about my history and that keeps me from trying to pursue anyone. My main concern is that I’m running behind and everyone else my age is much more experienced than I am. What’s more important is I realized I actually do want to have a partner and eventually start a family, and I'm very scared I won't get to have that because it's too late. I now find myself still single but much older and missing out on experiences that are probably important for my growth as a person. My social life died and never fully recovered. ![]() But then the pandemic hit, and I spent my 24th and 25th years locked inside my house. When I was younger, I didn’t feel like I was ready for a big commitment, and I was okay waiting. However, I have fallen in love, and I’ve had my heart broken. I’ve had a few relationships that were rather casual and never lasted longer than six months. I just turned 27, and I’ve never been in a committed relationship. ![]()
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